Today I did something I don't normally do---let go.
It wasn't anything extremely important, a bracelet I made to remind me of who I am, but it meant a lot to actually leave it behind. I've been going back to older things and revisiting them to see how important they actually are. And it's been different things, from clothing I don't wear anymore to pictures I haven't looked at in two or three years. I've been finding who I was, who I wanted to be. And now, after sorting through the demons of my past, I'm becoming more aware of who I am and who I want to be.
For instance, going through my old garments I've been keeping around for no reason have told me how I like to present myself to the world. That image is typically "Yes, I'm a unique freak, what of it?", and I'm perfectly content with that statement. As for the pictures, I've realized how important it is to me to document my life not only through writing, but through photographs and art. It reminds me of what it was like when the photo was taken, or how I felt when I created that piece.
So I've purchased some new clothes. I bought a beautiful analog camera named Diana about a month ago. And now I'm on the hunt for some AA-batteries for my piece-of-junk digital camera I'm getting by with until I'm rich. Old and new will collide to create the path from the present to my future.
Next on the agenda: Attempt to follow my heart, even when it's dragging me to strange, unexplored places.
Wish me luck.
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